1 Month

I love being a mom. The things I thought would be hard to adjust to are not the things that I have trouble with. I love waking up in the night for feedings. Why? Because that's extra time I get to spend with Lyla. The things I've had trouble with are:

- Not getting to spend as much time with Daniel. We were married for over 7 years before Lyla came. It was the two of us for a long time, and I miss him so much.

- Unwanted advice. I know people mean well, but it's hard sometimes to get advice when you really really don't want it. I've always questioned whether I'd be a good mom, so when people tell me things, it makes me feel like I'm not doing a good enough job.

- People wanting to hold Lyla. From day 1, people asked to hold her, and for some reason feel that they deserve their cuddle time with her. Even people from my ward who I have never spoken to come over just to hold her. For the 1st 3 weeks I cried just at the thought of someone else holding her. I feel very protective, and just want her all to myself. I waited this long for her, that I can't bring myself to let anyone else near her without breaking down.

Lyla is growing so fast, I honestly can't believe it. She just loves to eat. It's only every 3-4 hours, but it's obviously doing something.  Here are her growth stats:

Aug 24th: 4lbs 15oz

Sept 10th: 6lbs 1oz

Sept 24th: 7lbs 4oz

 She is just such a blessing in our lives, and I am so grateful she's mine. 

I can't believe she is already 1 month old. I really wanted to get professional pictures taken right after she was born, but she came early so we couldn't plan ahead, and then we moved to Washington 2 weeks after she was born. So it never really worked out. When she turned 1 month, I didn't want any more time to go by without taking some pics, so I turned my living room into a studio. I went online and Googled some posses, and then tried my best. So they aren't perfect, but I still love them.