I have thought about this story everyday since it happened. Replaying it over and over in my head. When you wait so long for something, and you finally get it, it seems very surreal. I still can't believe she is actually here.
Before I got pregnant, I decided that I wanted all the pain medication that the hospital could offer during labor. Once I was pregnant, I ended up doing a lot of research about the pro's and con's of pain medication, including an epidural. I had read several blogs of friends who recently did home births, and how much they enjoyed the experience. So I made the decision to try go un-medicated. We signed up for a Lamaze class, and found a wonderful midwife. These midwives will only deliver in the hospital, which is exactly what I wanted for my first. I didn't want to risk anything going wrong. Due date: Sept 10th.
Aug 24th - 12:02am
I woke up for my usual potty break. When I stood up, I felt some leakage. I didn't know if I had just wet myself, or if my water had broken. After 10 mins in the bathroom, Daniel asked if I was okay. I told him I thought my water had broken. He very calmly got dressed, and started gathering our bags. I told him I wanted to wait at least an hour, to make sure my water had actually broken.
1:10am
We arrived at the hospital. They checked, and confirmed that my water had broken, but that I was only dilated to a 1+ and 90% effaced. They hooked me up to an IV for some fluids while they monitored the baby for 20mins. Then they unhooked me from everything, and we went to the labor room where I changed out of the terrible hospital gown.
2:20am
Since I was only dilated to a 1+, I figured I had a long night/day ahead of me, and decided to get into the jetted tub. By this time, my contractions had started, and were close together. The warm water really helped.
3:45am
My contractions were really intense, and I decided I couldn't be in the tub anymore, that I needed to move around. I asked my midwife to check to see how much progress I had made. I was now at 3cm. Still a long way to go. My midwife recommended taking something to help with the pain, so I could get some rest. Most first time mom's labor for up to 18hours, and she didn't want me to get tired out. I agreed to the medication. This helped take the edge off the contractions, but I still felt every single one.
6:05am
My contractions had become unbearable. My body started to involuntarily push. I started to question whether I could go through with this or not. I kept telling Daniel, "I don't think I can do this", "I don't want to do this anymore". When I told my midwife that I felt like pushing, she found that I had dilated to a 7, and 100% effaced. That's when Daniel said to me "This is the worse it's going to get." In our Lamaze class, we were taught that at 7cm, that's when the pain is the worse, and it eases after that. I knew then, that as long as it didn't get any worse, I could do this.
6:25am
My midwife told me to just push whenever my body felt like it. For me, this was my favorite part. Being able to just listen to my body, and not have someone else telling me what I had to do. The pain of contractions had completely disappeared, and all that remained was a desire to push. It was just Daniel, the nurse (Vicki), and my midwife (Melissa) in the room. The lights were off, and the room was quiet. It was everything I had hoped for.
7:08am
Melissa told me to open my eyes and look down. When I opened my eyes, I saw my daughter for the first time, her eyes open and arms outstretched towards me. I held her in my arms under a blanket. She just lay there quietly. I couldn't believe what I had just done, and that she was finally here. She was perfect in every way.
I am so grateful to Daniel for being so amazing. The Lamaze class really helped him learn how best to help and support me during labor, and I'm so glad we took that class. There is no way I would have been able to go through labor without him. He stayed calm during the whole thing, and helped me to relax so that I could have the best experience.
With my midwife - Melissa. She was amazing and really helped me stay focused throughout my labor and delivery.
We feel so incredibly blessed to have Lyla in our lives. It makes everything we went through to get her, absolutely worth it.